Inner thoughts.

Really, like seriously im a lyricist and a poet, as if the two arent already one? right? But anywho, i feel that pretty soon in my life something big is about to happen. I honestly dont know hwat it is quite yet, i know it will involve a whole bunch of money an decision making. I just know im gonna put God first in all that I do...

Hello There...

Okay, this time around I'm not going to promise ANYTHING because i realized just how hetic my life can get. What I will say is that 1. I want to loose 45lbs. 2. I want my dream weave (shallow) 3.I need better more effective ways of making money 4. My Senior year is coming up and I'm STOKED!!! and last, that as of current i have absolutely no way of doing any of these things. Currently my life is spinning, and my goal is to be completely transparent here about all of my thoughts, decisions, and intake on life however misconstrewed they may be. If you don't like it, there's always that little red X in the corner. I'm a realist, at times...ha. that's all for now, I'll be back tomorrow to tell you all the hell I've been through in a couple short weeks. :D
love, peace, & hair grease!

Summer.

okayy, its the season when all the lil hoochie mama's come out. & all the so called "playas". I still love summer though. It has that great down home feel here in Tennesee that reminds you of something you cant quite yet rememeber. It's definetly hot as two fat people kissing on leather seats here... & all the people you haven't seen all year come out during this season..Well, I'll finsih this later my mama's RUSHING me to get off of the computer again with her hertorical question " Are you almost done?" when in fact all she had to say was, simply "Kayla, I need to use the computer." Lord, that lady makes everything so difficult.. ttyl till nevt time loves. (:

Whaaaadddduuup?!!??!

Lakers we WON that thang! It's our 17th baby! Imma say this once AINT NOBODY ON OUR LEVEL! legggooo! They can talk crap all day long, but at the end of the day WE WON! Gotta love'em! :))

Always, remember NOTHING is ever promised tommorow today..

This song has soo much depth, plus its just plain DOPE. Yahhurddmee??!?!

Why Am I Here?

It is 12:15 a.m. and I am currently listening to "The Manhatten Street Band's" song Tired of Fighting. I asked myself the very simple question above and to my astonishment, I couldn't really fully answer it. Now, me, Im the kid who never reads the book but can still answer every questsion fully on the book report and pass with flying colors. But this question has baffaled me. I've looked at it from almost every possible angle and yet have nothing. How do you truly find out your purpose? Is there like a place you can go to have testing done on your brain and abilities? That can positvley confirm that your supposed to be a lawyer or hell, maybe even a stripper? It's hard to maintain my composure when I don't really have a grasp of what the hell im really supposed to do with my life. Ya know? Well, your here to get advice from me, i don't know why im asking you... I KNOW what I would like to do. & that's act, and write poetry. Poetry flow through me on regular days...it's that breeze in the car late at night, that feeling of recognition when you've returned to a place you haven't been to for a while, and that ora you get from listing to REAL music (stuff that touches your soul)... Almost everyday, I pretend to be someone I'm not, IF im supposed to be where I think. I guess this is my alternate life, assigned to me for the time being. I really don't care for it much though. My joys are only in God and family. Everything else fades away and eventually surpresses itself out of my life. Friends included. I wonder if theres a kid like me, truly wondering where they fit in this world too? Or are they not brave enough to admit that. hate thinking of myself as a child. Though, I know I am, mainly because authority sucks. Im my own person, with my own will, wanting to do my own things. Consider me a "lil" adult..

Where do you go?

Okay, where do you go when all else fails. The other day I sat back and thought really hard for a really long time. In that time I realized, that I have less people there for me than I thought. I only have a few friends and the only people that remain constant in my life are family. People can tell you all day long about who to and not to hang out with, but, in reality I found that I was just pre-judging people soley based on anothers opinion of them. I think its time for me to live my own life, choose my own friends, and trust my OWN judgement. I found that I make friends with ppl , sometimes JUST to prevent myself from the loneliness of standing alone. But, to be succcessful you have to be alone somethimes. Some of the best things are birthed out of need.