Inner thoughts.

Really, like seriously im a lyricist and a poet, as if the two arent already one? right? But anywho, i feel that pretty soon in my life something big is about to happen. I honestly dont know hwat it is quite yet, i know it will involve a whole bunch of money an decision making. I just know im gonna put God first in all that I do...

Hello There...

Okay, this time around I'm not going to promise ANYTHING because i realized just how hetic my life can get. What I will say is that 1. I want to loose 45lbs. 2. I want my dream weave (shallow) 3.I need better more effective ways of making money 4. My Senior year is coming up and I'm STOKED!!! and last, that as of current i have absolutely no way of doing any of these things. Currently my life is spinning, and my goal is to be completely transparent here about all of my thoughts, decisions, and intake on life however misconstrewed they may be. If you don't like it, there's always that little red X in the corner. I'm a realist, at times...ha. that's all for now, I'll be back tomorrow to tell you all the hell I've been through in a couple short weeks. :D
love, peace, & hair grease!

Summer.

okayy, its the season when all the lil hoochie mama's come out. & all the so called "playas". I still love summer though. It has that great down home feel here in Tennesee that reminds you of something you cant quite yet rememeber. It's definetly hot as two fat people kissing on leather seats here... & all the people you haven't seen all year come out during this season..Well, I'll finsih this later my mama's RUSHING me to get off of the computer again with her hertorical question " Are you almost done?" when in fact all she had to say was, simply "Kayla, I need to use the computer." Lord, that lady makes everything so difficult.. ttyl till nevt time loves. (:

Whaaaadddduuup?!!??!

Lakers we WON that thang! It's our 17th baby! Imma say this once AINT NOBODY ON OUR LEVEL! legggooo! They can talk crap all day long, but at the end of the day WE WON! Gotta love'em! :))

Always, remember NOTHING is ever promised tommorow today..

This song has soo much depth, plus its just plain DOPE. Yahhurddmee??!?!

Why Am I Here?

It is 12:15 a.m. and I am currently listening to "The Manhatten Street Band's" song Tired of Fighting. I asked myself the very simple question above and to my astonishment, I couldn't really fully answer it. Now, me, Im the kid who never reads the book but can still answer every questsion fully on the book report and pass with flying colors. But this question has baffaled me. I've looked at it from almost every possible angle and yet have nothing. How do you truly find out your purpose? Is there like a place you can go to have testing done on your brain and abilities? That can positvley confirm that your supposed to be a lawyer or hell, maybe even a stripper? It's hard to maintain my composure when I don't really have a grasp of what the hell im really supposed to do with my life. Ya know? Well, your here to get advice from me, i don't know why im asking you... I KNOW what I would like to do. & that's act, and write poetry. Poetry flow through me on regular days...it's that breeze in the car late at night, that feeling of recognition when you've returned to a place you haven't been to for a while, and that ora you get from listing to REAL music (stuff that touches your soul)... Almost everyday, I pretend to be someone I'm not, IF im supposed to be where I think. I guess this is my alternate life, assigned to me for the time being. I really don't care for it much though. My joys are only in God and family. Everything else fades away and eventually surpresses itself out of my life. Friends included. I wonder if theres a kid like me, truly wondering where they fit in this world too? Or are they not brave enough to admit that. hate thinking of myself as a child. Though, I know I am, mainly because authority sucks. Im my own person, with my own will, wanting to do my own things. Consider me a "lil" adult..

Where do you go?

Okay, where do you go when all else fails. The other day I sat back and thought really hard for a really long time. In that time I realized, that I have less people there for me than I thought. I only have a few friends and the only people that remain constant in my life are family. People can tell you all day long about who to and not to hang out with, but, in reality I found that I was just pre-judging people soley based on anothers opinion of them. I think its time for me to live my own life, choose my own friends, and trust my OWN judgement. I found that I make friends with ppl , sometimes JUST to prevent myself from the loneliness of standing alone. But, to be succcessful you have to be alone somethimes. Some of the best things are birthed out of need.

hehe..

I know, havent been on here in forever...& I think its halirious b/c everytime I get on I say this..lol

It Feels soo good to be back! (AGAIN) lol

Well, this is officially my last time abandoning this blog! I have commitment problems to things like this..lol. But, thats all changing starting today. To futher me as a person and in society and to help enpower and better young people of the same race. From now on WHATEVER catches my eye is what'll be posted. && trust me thats ALOT! Welp, thats all for now folks.

HAITION RELIEF EFFORTS!!!

On tuesday me and three other friends are working on a fundraisor at my school to help those in Haiti. I look at the whole situation like this; if that child without a leg was your kid and you just lost absolutley everything you have would you look at this situation as non chalantly as you are? If that was your mom, father, or ant other relative how would you feel? And even if its not a relatice were all one human race. All made to help and love one another in times when we need each other most.

Yaaay. Snow days are the best.

Well since I am in Tennesse we dont see snow too often so when we do ABSOLUTLEY EVERYTHING SHUTS DOWN.lol Which is great cause that means i get a day off from school! Well as of now i dont have any followers and i really dont know how to get any. It's kinda depressing :(. But hopefully if i post enough folks will come. Ugggh in English were reading this book called Silas Marner and it is absolutley revolting and kinda good at the same time. ;p So since I have absolutley nothing better to do I guess ill put up some really cute fashionable stuff for the trendy teen as myslef. (trendy is a wee bit corny but i couldnt find a better word.lolz)
The image to the left is me on auh snowday at the house.

Im Baacck!....Again.;p

Well...I decided i was gonna give this blogging thing another go. Reason being because recently a teen girl by the name of Taylor Woodson who went to a neighboring school in my school district died at the hand of her very adult boyfriend in a murder/sucide. Since I feel that part of my purpose is to help this generation of which im being raised in that was defintley a big motivater for me to start back. We always think abuse is a one-way street. Society as a whole actully. People always say that if they were ever in a abusive realtionship that they would get out, or it would enfd in the other person getting hurt. Most times laughing and joking about it. But one can be in an relationship and not even know their being abused. For instance my mother was verbally and at time physically abuse by her partner for two years without even realizing it at first. Love is defintly a very bright blinding light. Fortunley i didnt loose her at the hand of her partners abuse. Many time people can see better than the person in the realtionship whats actually happening. So I urge you young people in order to prevent more death of useless, senseless, idiocracy in the world. Help those that are blind to the fact that the person their with is hurting, and hindering them not helping, and uplifiting. If you know anyone in a n abusive realtionship P L E A S E do not be scared to talk to them and if they are in immediate danger call the nearest police statoin immediatly.

Immmmm Baaacckkk!

Well I haven't been updating and posting like I'm supposed to so that's my goal for the rest of this year to post something everyday until the end of the year and hopefully I'll get some people to follow me and actually be interested in what the heck I have to say. Well that's all for right now folks I gotta finish filling out my application for my first job. WHOOOO I'm so excited!!!!

Don't Take Life For Granted!!

Whooo... sorry I havent been on in while but my pastor's son just recently died in a car accident. Wowww you never know how special someone is to you or how much they mean untill you no longer have them in your life. We hear stories everyday about car wrecks, shootings and other horrible things but to us it's just another story. Another stry that we have yet to learn from. You'd think that people would take the neccessary precautions after they'd seen or heard about other people dying but do they.No. It doesnt mean anything to us i guess untill we have to hurtand suffer the pain of actually loosing somebody to this madness.I guess what im trying to say is dot take for granted the people you have in your life right now because in the twinkling of an eye they could be gone. Yea these might be just words to you right now but sooner or later they'll become real and you'll need encouragement .

See you guys later.

Later I'm going to put up some clothes i think the average teen can afford that are dope too. Then im gonna put up some clothes i wish i could get that are super dooope :].
God.Peace. Love. Hairgrese.
Until next time
-Kayla

Have you ever been in this position?

Have you ever found youself only caring for others too much to even consider time for yourself? I do, as a matter of fact i do it all the time.Yea sometimes I want someone to rub my back and tell me it's okay but i would much rather give it than receive. It's kinda like people take me for granted sometimes. But I feel much better when I can assure someone else that everything is going to be okay. That's mostly where my joy comes from.
God. Peace. Love. Hairgrese.
until next time
-Kayla

This girl can bloooowww!!!!

I don't know who she is but she can sang.... if she does'nt already have some type of deal she defintly needs one!!

Be true to yourself.

Well, today I called my a friend of mine and they were trying to pressure me nto doing something i would really rather not do. If you've ever had this happen you know where im coming from. Instead of going off I kindly declined. But have you ever wondered why do people try to pressure others inton doing things they would much rather not do. Is it because they don't fell good enough about themselves to even consider anothers person's discomfort? Or is it because they care too much about themselves to do it to them so they would rather see someone else fall by the wayside? Well whatever it is im here to tell you don't be pressured into doing ANYTHING you know is wrong or you just don't want to do. Cause in the end the one that will be the most affected is you.

For teens who want to make extra money!!

This is a great website that helps you earn a cash while you sleep and whatever else im doing it right now and i wouldn't suggest anything that is crap. Plus is tottaly free!! :]

http://buzz.teenfreeway.com/z/17/CD17489

Here's a couple of pictures that I really like.